Disgust

I don't know why but the feeling of being full has become extremely nauseating. I am extremely disgusted by my thighs and tummy.

I'll be home for the coming week because lectures and tutorials have mostly ended. & this means that I will look like a freaking aunty most of the time; with my spectacles, pimply face & frizzy hair. What is this? A replay of A level prep? I swear my hormones are screwing me up.

Pure studying makes life so meaningless. Best thing is that it isn't even very productive. Why am I not maximising my time?

I can't wait for finals to be over. Only then can I meet all my friends which I've only seen zero, once or twice since school started and finally hit the Californian beach.

School makes me fat. Exams make me fatter. I am digging in to that pint of B&J solace. My goodness am I bipolar? I am enjoying what I hate.

& yeah, I guess this getting-bored-of-people thing runs in the blood. A common factor between me and my vastly different bro just as he said. As you grow older, it's harder to make lifelong friendships. But that's okay because I've already acquired a handful which I can't be more thankful of.

Oh damn. Am I gonna stay single forever? How is it possible that I am not interested in anybody at all?